The God of War


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Found while listening to a track via SomaFM, a quote woven behind the music. I don’t remember the song artist, but a Google search revealed the quote:

“People under the age of 20 have this massive hole in their soul. And they have built their personalities around cynicism. Cynicism means, simply, aping or putting into an ironic form, mocking, existing institutions, instead of building institutions of your own.

What I’ve discovered is that because these people have such a deep need for something to believe in. Someone like me or you who can come along and show these people that there is a meaning to life, that there are things worth believing in, that there are things worth being passionate about, they respond immediately.

I’ve been searching the Gods all my life and now I know them, the Gods inside of us. Or I feel I do.

Now, we’re either going to have the new Adolf Hitler’s coming along, who know how to manipulate this need, and do it with the new nationalisms and the new tribalism’s, and the new hate groups, or we’re going to have a you or a me, who will come along and pour a positive message, a positive sense of something to believe in, a positive crusade for emotionality.

The only messiahs who exist are as human beings. We human beings are all basically cockroaches at heart. That is to say, we’re insecure when we’re alone by ourselves, we have all kinds of self-doubts, we have our depressions, and we have all kinds of reasons to believe that we’re nobody at all. But it’s the ‘nobodys-at-all’ who become the Isaiahs of the world, it’s the ‘nobodys-at-all’ who become the Einstein’s of the world, it’s the ‘nobodys-at-all’ who become the Jesus Christ’s of the world.

It’s up to human beings to be the messiahs. We’re the only ones who are there to do it. And we have to do it. We have to do it. Because if we don’t do it, someone with an equal belief and passion to ours, who believes that the way to achieve things is through the old animal way – built into our limbic system, built into the lower parts of our brain, who knows that the best way to unite people is by uniting them in hatred against an outside group; and uniting them in mass murder.

We have to come along before that person comes along. We have to fill that void, and we have to fill it with positivity. It’s about digging into the elemental passions. All of this plays a part in trying to give to the new generation a movement that’s based on something extraordinarily passionate. That you can powerfully believe in. That you can use to advance humanity tremendously, absolutely tremendously, but that excises, deliberately, the God of War.

When you find the Gods inside yourself, you’ll find the God of War. You’ll find the God of bloodlust. You’ll find the God of genocide. And he will be one of the most powerful passions in you. And you have to knife him out of existence. You have to freeze him in his own private Hell, and make your positive Gods the Gods that take you over.

And by ‘the Gods that take you over’ I mean you have to find those passions that are so much more powerful than you, than anything you’ve been allowed to express in your life, and making those things the things you work on. In other words, not putting off until you’re 40 or 50 the things you feel passionate about at the age of 15 and 16 – but going directly to those things, and trying to implement them when you’re 20.

Pass ‘Go’. Forget the 200 dollars. Go directly to Park Place. And put your life there, on the line, with all the emotion and power and passion and insight in you.

And fuck the God of War.”

- Howard Bloom

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2010 – My Year In Visuals

Another here come and gone. Rather than my traditional roundup of experiences and resolutions (see 2008, and 2009) I’ve decided to paint a visual picture of the year. I think I first saw this done by Mike Hedge.

So without further ado:

January – I don’t actually remember much of what happened. I barely have any photos either, except for the One Week Job promo shoot we did with Nordica Photography.

In a twist of post-modern-ism-ism, I reverse recorded them as they photographed us.

February – Sean, Danna, Karen and I attended our first ever circus school. I had a bit of a hard time with the silks, but you can see Karen quickly adapted. (View Flicker set)

February was also the massive gong-show known as the Olympics. I was fairly conflicted on the event. The price tag alone was staggering, and the true benefit to the city questionable. (View Flicker set)

It wasn’t until the gold medal hockey game between Canada and the US, (which was also my 29th birthday) when the tension gave away to excitement and global high-fives. (View Flicker set)

Sean and I also managed a quick work jaunt down to San Francisco, and John Muir park just outside the city. (View Flicker set)

March – Pretty quiet month, though Karen and I did manage to attend the season opening weekend for the Salt Spring Yoga Center.

April – What do you do when it’s one of your best friend’s stag parties? You dress him in a Nacho Libre costume and take him to Tofino.

April was also the month I was introduced to the work of Charles Eisenstein, at a moment when I began questioning the credibility of the mainstream “green” movement.

May – The official release of the One Week Job book and film was a family and friends affair, in our hometown of Port Moody.

After the screening, I felt compelled to share a few words on what the film meant to me:

Later in the month I was privileged to attend Media That Matters, a yearly gathering of creative media makers who want to change the world for the better.


Photo: Tav Rayne

Finally, the month ended with a trip down to Mexico for Ben’s wedding. (View Flickr set)

While the event was a memorable experience with friends and family, I couldn’t help but sink into a bit of a depression while reading Eisenstein’s ‘The Ascent of Humanity.’ The emotion culminated in A Lament for Childhood. As I look back, I realize how important this was for my ability to look into society’s shadow (and my own) and still push forward.

June – Another wedding, another Latin American country. I spent the first week before the wedding traveling Cuba alone. (View Flickr set)

Almost immediately after the wedding, I set out for two weeks in Costa Rica and Panama, directing a pilot for the web series “Breaking Free” following American expats living abroad. Robin (left) and myself took freedom to new levels.

July – For my wife’s 33 birthday, I took her to the Pan Pacific in downtown Vancouver. It was a night of luxury, wine, and sunsets at English Bay. My follow up post on the Pan’s blog 6 Ways To Be a Tourist (Even If You’re A Vancouver Local)

AugustOne Week Job Program participant Amanda Lowe arrived in Vancouver and helped put together a “pop-up” event on One Week Job.

Also, after a few months of Skype tag, I came onboard with filmmaker Velcrow Ripper, helping out on his new film “Evolve Love: Love In A Time of Climate Crisis”.

Our first field shoot was the tar sands in Alberta. We followed an indigenous peace walk around the refineries. (View Flickr set). The sheer scope of the project, and the environmental destruction was staggering.

In late August, prior to Burning Man, I stayed at a friend’s cabin in Echo Lake, (near Lake Tahoe). Christine (former editor of Brave New Traveler) is captured here on our hike into the stunning Desolation Sound.

Sept – Next stop, Burning Man, the 50,000+ art and community festival in the desert of Nevada. (View Flickr set) I attempted to distill my second visit with Burning Man: The Prophecy of Shambhala.

In late Sept, One Week Job had its first festival premiere at HatchFest in Bozeman, Montana. (View Flickr set)

October – After a relatively quiet month, I ended with the raucous Work Less Party Party for Halloween. You can see my costume choice was … “enlightened.”

November – As part of an experiment I’d wanted to try for a while, my wife and I decided to decline booze for 30 days, calling it “No Booze November.” We also kicked off a month long yoga intensive studying the yoga sutras of Patañjali with Clara Roberts.

Late month, Sean and I took a detour down to LA for some One Week Job meetings, where we also met up with red paperclip trader Kyle MacDonald. We shot some great footage for a new pilot based on Kyle’s project “Who Are These Guys?

Lastly, we shot another pilot for the series “Wingmen” with Devon and Jordan. Their company Social Fluency teaches “the art of attraction.”

December – I flew back to Mexico to cover the Climate Summit (COP16) for Velcrow’s film Evolve Love. My beat was “La Via Campesina” – the peasant’s camp, who marched to show their support for food sovereignty and real solutions to climate change. (View Flickr set)

350.org staged a climate action during the conference, holding a mock press conference while the waves continue to rise. I shot and editing this quick piece that afternoon:

Finally, the holidays. Another year, another cute photo of our dog Tobi.

Looking forward now to 2011…

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Letter To Shane and Josh


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511 days in detainment. 511 days in a cell, in the thin light of prison, footsteps echoing up and down the halls. I read your story, and your history. We’re almost the same age.

Shane, I am a photographer and filmmaker, just like you. I have traveled to foreign cities, found myself in strange circumstances, and thankfully, left with my freedom.

But perhaps, what if one of those times it turned out differently? What if I woke up, on a grey morning, with bars in front of my eyes? What if freedom became a memory? I realize, it could have been me. It could have been me.

You are serving time for all of our sins. All the suffering we impose on ourselves and others. All of the prisoners languishing in solitude. In a different world, one that I know you both imagine, strangers could meet one another without fear. I believe one day this world will come.

Until then, I think of you both.

www.freethehikers.org

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The Enemy Within

Last week, I shot the Cancun Climate Summit (COP16) for the upcoming documentary Evolve Love. I produced this short clip of one of the climate actions put on by 350.org, to urge negotiators to hurry up (some countries are literally drowning)

It was a fascinating experience to be among world leaders and activists from all over the world, deciding on the future of the planet (or at least humanity’s role).

Just a few months earlier I was in an elementary school in the suburbs of Vancouver, shooting a friend’s “Zero Heroes” theatre show encouraging kids to be green.

I realize there is a war going on… and it’s fought on multiple fronts.

Now more than ever, we need to realize the true enemy isn’t evil corporations, fundamental terrorists, shady governments, or apathetic populations… these are merely symptoms of the greater issue. We need to shift the paradigm of who we are and why we’re here… and drop the delusion:

We are not separate from the greater whole, and we never were.

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Reality: A Diagram

I was recently passed an article espousing an new American revolution, drawing a firm line between us versus them. People versus corporations. A future of Ecotopia versus Mad Max. Passive sheep versus violent overthrow.

I’ve been down this territory before.

My response to these bleak apocalyptic scenarios is the third option: non-violent resistance. Rooted in the belief that the only true revolution is the deep understanding of inter-connectedness.

I am the corporations. I am the oil spills. Just as I am the sunny days, and the joy of being.

Non-violent resistance has many forms beyond the sign-waving mass protest. You might write a song. Or stop eating meat. Or follow your passion. Or confront your fears. Or rediscover love.

Nobody has claim to the one true perspective. Like the diagram above, (shared) reality is manifested by our multiple perspectives. Our ideas about reality are never as grand as actual reality – the perfect unfolding of life in all its forms. And yet our actions certainly have an effect on reality (also known as karma).

As we enter into further times of chaos, we must remember to live gracefully, no matter the challenges, and explore multiple visions of the future.

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No Booze November: First Observations


Always do sober what you said you’d do drunk. That will teach you to keep your mouth shut. ~ Ernest Hemingway

Well, my wife and I are 12 days into our experiment, (abstaining from alcohol for the entire month of November), and I think it’s just enough time to offer some first observations.

In the interest of brevity, and because these aren’t fully formed theories (yet), I’ll offer them as list:

  1. After some initial raised eyebrows and declarations of “you’re crazy!” our friends have been supportive. Though that hasn’t stopped some of them from expressing loudly just how delicious their beer tastes.
  2. Attending a party where you’re sober is a challenge. Everyone else gets louder and you just get tired. In fact, a whole evening seems like eternity. I never realized (with booze) how much time you spend at social events just…standing around talking.
  3. At the same time, I find you can concentrate more on the person you’re speaking with. Conversations are more efficient, and involve less drunken rambling (which is favourable or not, depending on your opinion).
  4. I have not craved booze unless around others who are drinking (no surprise). What I did find surprising was the feeling came from “wanting to fit in” rather than my tastebuds or the anticipated alcohol. When tipsy, it’s easier to get along with others under the same effects.
  5. When they know you’re not drinking, your host may get more creative! One night, a friend sourced 5 different types of root beer specifically for me to taste test. Whatta gal!
  6. It is AMAZING getting up in the morning (on the weekends) with no lingering dehydration or headache. Instead… you just feel good.

That’s all I have so far… later this month I fly to Los Angeles, a city not known for its sobriety. We’ll see if I can stay the course.

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No Booze November Starts Today


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I envy people who drink— at least they know what to blame everything on. ~ Oscar Levant

A few months ago, I woke up one morning (not hungover) with the realization: I can’t remember the last time I went more than 30 days without having a drink.

I am far from a binge drinker, but I suppose you could say I drink a little…often. I tend to have a glass of wine or two during the week, with an occasional pint at the pub for a social evening. Then on the weekends, both nights are generally accompanied with a few beers, or the occasional gin and tonic.

Nothing that leaves a mark the morning after. Unless, it’s a birthday party, or an engagement, or a Burning Man Decompression, or… you get the idea. My wife is in a similar mode…though with less beer and more wine.

So we decided to pick a month and go booze free. Why? I’m actually curious what would happen. Maybe nothing. Or maybe something. Will I feel more mentally clear? Physically healthier? Or will I just be more boring at parties?

Only time will tell.

For those out there who are already non-drinkers, feel free to roll your eyes. But to others who have habitually participated in this social norm, it can be countering significant inertia to say ‘no thanks.’

So 30 days it is. There’s no prize at the end of the tunnel. No high-five from the divine. Hopefully just the satisfaction of exercising the ability to “unlearn” if only temporarily.

I’ll check in through the process and let you know what I discover.

Soberly yours,
- Ian

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The Social Network

The most telling scene in The Social Network was between Eduardo Saverin (Zuckerberg’s best friend and CFO) and his unhinged girlfriend. She confronts him after his return from a business trip, and demands why his Facebook status still lists him as “single.”

He confesses that he actually doesn’t know how to update his relationship status. His girlfriend believes it must be a lie… after all, as how could the CFO of Facebook not know how to update his status?

Rather than acknowledge the reality of being in a relationship, she resides in the “image” of reality. Rather than have an actual relationship with Eduardo, it’s not real until the image shows others it’s real.

For me, this is the true zeitgeist of our times.

Social networking has given us the ability to live our entire lives through the projections we show to the world. The sheer volume of “friends” that most people connect with online is far greater than the authentic connections we could hope to sustain face-to-face. Some of these friends we will meet occasionally, while most, never at all.

In effect, “you” ceases to exist. In your place is the “image of you” – constructed by status updates, photos, quiz results, movie clips, quotes, and of course, your friends.

This phenomenon is not new. We do the same thing with language, science, and religion. A Zen parable warns against becoming lost in the abstract: it’s like eating the menu instead of the food.

Similarly, Alan Watts argues in The Book, that this abstraction is not a problem in itself. After all, we have no other way of apprehending reality, other than through our interpretations:

There is no alternative to the use of conceptions and images, and no harm in it so long as we realize what we are doing. Idolatry is not the use of images, but confusing them with what they represent, and in this respect mental images and lofty abstractions can be more insidious than bronze idols.

Another example. The opening scene of The Social Network reveals Mark Zuckerberg and his soon-to-be ex girlfriend at the pub. After a rapid-fire argument, she tells him, “Even though you’ll likely be a success someday, you’ll think people will hate you because you’re a nerd. But in fact, they’ll hate you because you’re an asshole.”

Zuckerberg proceeds to become obsessed not with examining his own misperceptions about himself and others – but instead, about altering the perception that others have of him. Likewise, he flips the exclusion he faced from the top fraternity’s at Harvard by creating the most popular network in the world. Suddenly, everyone wants to be his friend – or more accurately, be “seen” as his friend.

The irony is Zuckerberg (at least as portrayed in the film) becomes so lost in the trappings of abstract relationships, that he failed to cultivate the one real friend he had – Eduardo Saverin. Their bond ends in bitter litigation and settlement.

Alan Watts continues:

“It is difficult not to feel the force of the image, because images sway our emotions more deeply than conceptions. When we realize that this form of identity is no more than a social institution, and one which has ceased to be a workable life-game, the sharp division between oneself and the ultimate reality is no longer relevant.”

The final scenes of the film return Zuckerberg to his ex-girlfriend scorned. Rather than resolve to mend their relationship in person, he reaches out the only way he knows how: he adds her on Facebook.

And refreshes the page…continuously…awaiting her response.

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